i'm confusing now

i'm starting notice business easily to built up but hard to keep it up...my It department profit is not optimize these 3 weeks.

i argued with him regard of business issued , especially financial problem will make us anxiety.

secondly, 我很矛盾对自己的事业。我已经有下定目标，看起来好像很难实现。我很担心金钱的回馈很慢。

i afraid of i buying a bulk of stock and the cash flow is slow. i'm keeping to think solutions for my department and a mobile department.

i might moody to make myself thought something negative minds just now , when i think of his face , warm hugs , kisses. it may give me a lot of power to continue our business.

i hope our goals really can be achieved in 5 years later . i won't give up to 增值自己 , improve my career , maintain our relationship in the future.

加油，加油 ^_^